"Only" fallout? This is huge, Sturg. It sounds like you've let this guy's words become believable for you. I admit it pulled the rug out from under my feet, too.
I've been here since the beginning alongside you. I haven't finished reading this yet, but I hope you'll go out there and realize this is where you belong and come back to the challenges. You're a talented writer who can dig deep or write lighthearted with interesting takeaways.